I've drowned.

I've been consumed and swallowed by my sorrows. What it was? What caused it? How'd it happen? I am still in disbelief by the answer I will be ashamed to admit it. I never knew that while I was happy I was slowly losing the picture. Was happy not enough? Could I have not stayed happy? Is love the only so tormenting thing that can fuck up your whole life? I'm not getting out of this anytime soon. Just sad. Truly grieving.